Let’s be honest. Change is hard. Whether it is losing weight, moving your home, changing your job, it doesn’t matter. The upheaval can leaving you feeling off balance and unsure.
I’ve been doing more and more introspection these last 6 months since my diagnosis and if there is one thing that I know for sure, it’s that the stress of change manifests itself as fear in me. Fear can be debilitating. I never identified it until recently and that scares the crap out of me too. All the personal new discoveries can be exciting but equally frightening. (What else don’t I know about myself, yet!)
So, I had to dig a little further and I realized something really important. It’s not just random, broad fear. It’s fear of not having enough. A fear of scarcity. And here is the funny part. My commitment to positive thinking was probably masking that understanding until recently.
But the bottom line is this, if subconsciously I am always second guessing all that I have, then that is exactly what I will get in return – just barely enough.
What if I don’t have enough? What if….what if… what if….
When there is nonstop and unfounded worry about not having enough, then you are no longer in the driver’s seat of your life – Fear is. And that flipping stinks.
As Katie Courageous says, There’s no ease, no expansiveness, no faith in oneself, trust in the world, when you avoid making choices that will lift you up, because you’re afraid of not having enough…
I read that quote and I laugh at myself. I have grand plans to overcome MS and I have 100% confidence that every force and resource in my life is going to help make that happen. THERE IS NO DOUBT. It’s already the truth. Yet, I fear that if I buy the wrong house, or chase down a new business, that I will end up with nothing even though everything in my body tells me to take the leap and do it. It’s not even logical.
My career is dedicated to finding solutions. There are always options. Yet, in the quietest moments, when my brain starts racing, I forget that there will always be options for me too no matter what I choose and those options will always be enough.
That I do not have enough, I am are lacking something I need to be happy, or that who I am is not enough is not true. None of it is true.
The truth is I already have everything. I already am everything.
The good news? The same is true for you. Here’s to living abundantly.